I am desperately struggling to come to terms with my scan yesterday. 8 week scan showed 6 week foetus with no hb. I really was not expecting it. I had an early scan to reassure myself but to be honest, was pretty confident all was well. My previous dc had been complicated pregnancies - lots of bleeding - but ironically they turned out fine, whilst this one with no bleeding or anything was not.
I did not sleep at all last night. I am obsessing about what happened two weeks ago and whether I caused it. It is really bothering me that I went for a run at around 6 weeks and during it, I got a pain and sort of crampy feelings. I carried on to get home and now I think that maybe the run caused the mc. I am used to running long distances, but still. I just feel so shit that I might have had something to stop the pregnancy - what if I hadn't gone for that run?? etc etc
I think I am going mad. I have to be re-scanned next week but the lady told me that she was almost certain it was a no-goer. I just wish to be honest, I could have the ERPC now as I can't take this much more.