Can anybody calm me down?

[MegMum25]

Hi there I am pregnant again (seventh pregnancy with one success so far) and having treatment for elevated natural killer cells. Yesterday I felt really positive that this one would work out too and I am all set to have a new ivig type treatment called intralipid this afternoon at home, but this morning I did another hpt and the line was marginally fainter and now I have go9t myself into a panic that its bound for failure again. I tested after a big wee earlier so there was hardly any wee and the line came up quickly but not as quickly or as dar as yesterday. I am apprehensive about the intralipid infusion as I took only steroids before (with my successful pregnqancy after m/c number 4). I just don;t think I can handle this again and I know I should remain positive and trust in the treatment but I just could not help myself from interpreting the hpt. Cannot talk to anyone, my husband thinks I am mad.....

If there is a line, there is a line, no matter how faint, it's possitive.

Calm down!

(Very easy for me to say, I know!)

How faint/strong the line is only related to how strong/dilute the urine is. You are not mad you are understandably worried, think postive, you don't mention any worrying symptoms so fingers crossed and good luck.

its probably just very diluted cos of your big wee thats all.

Know how you feel though i too panic at every little teeny weeny thing.
sympathies and hugs, but listen,

THIS WILL BE ALRIGHT X

i was told to catch the wee mid way through xx a bit messy but apparantly it works xx

any news sweet xx

Hi there. Thanks so much for your kind words. I am marginally less mad than the other day. All pregnancy tests have been confiscated and my dh (sensibly) told me it's sitting it out til a scan or bleed OR going to have my hcgs done and nothing else. So, am going to sit it out. I had the intralipid infusion done, it was so stressful obtaining the drug via the Lister am actually considering a complaint against their team of nurses but that's another story. The actual process was fine, it's just a drip of some White milky looking stuff for two hours. I am also popping my steroid and progesterone and aspirin. Boobs are sore and weeing lots but am crampy. Who knows. I felt this way on my doomed pregnancies and my successful one. I hate this universe going on inside that I cannot in any way influence. Am trying to relax but am a total insomniac!! Got 16 days before any scan. Gaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh. Going to just keep looking at my dd and remembering that she made it..... Thanks again

oh no 16 days xx its orrible when you are waiting for something so important...seems totake forever...the first few days will drag but after that hopefully for you it will fly by x when i was 24 weeks i was told i had a positive fibronectine test (ffn) which is a test that says i am likely to go into labour within 2 weeks (not 100% accurate) well 2 weeks has never taken so long but now im 28+1 and time is ticking by nicely so keep your hopes up and let us know how u get on xxx

nearly time...any news though xx

Hi there - I am hanging in there. It's a cocktaiul of anxiety, fear of going to the loo, constant boob squeezing and insomnia but so far so good. I feel symptoms and no bleeding so no (logical) reason to assume it's not ongoing. It's the FEAR though. I will let you all know if we get a HB. Then hopefully we will have more cause for positivity. Thanks for remembering! I guess you too are nagning in there and not gone into -premature labour yet? xx

God I was constantly boob squeezing to confirm if I was pregnant last time.
I had a faint line too... but it turned into a pregnancy.