Best friend picked up her dd a couple of ours ago, shes 4months and I have had her for the day. I am used to being around small children so I am not sure quite why I find this so hard. I feel so sad now shes gone. Its not that I specifically miss the baby its MY baby I miss, its like I just keep getting these little glimpses of what it should have been like. And now am all alone I just ache.