I am bored with the whole thing now.
I cant even muster up the enthusiasm to be sad this time.
Im just not looking forward to the pain. the physical pain is just excrucaiting, indescribable.
When does good luck come back to a person? and why does my body let me down so badly so often?
Thinking of telling dh that i dont want to try again.
sigh
mc number 5 on the way.