I don't really know why I'm writing this, but I think it might help to get my thoughts down.
I found out I was pregnant 2 weeks ago. The day after I did the test I had a little bleeding, but nothing too much. When I was pregnant with DD I had similar, so was cautious but hoped all would be OK. On Wednesday last week, the bleeding started again. It still wasn't enough to really worry me, but I called the Dr as I wanted to get a scan ASAP, just so I could know.
I got an appointment at the EPU on Friday. At first the sonographer said she couldn't see anything, but that it might be too early (I was only around 5w+6). Then suddenly there was a little sac. She did lots of the clicking to measure, and while she was doing this I could see a tiny heartbeat flickering. I was so relieved! Then I realised the sonographer hadn't said anything. After about 5 minutes she quietly said, "it's ectopic" and confirmed that it did have a heartbeat, but was in the wrong place. She even swept over my uterus to show that it was empty. I felt sick.
From then, I was kept at the EPU where they explained I had to stay in hosiptal and be operated on immediately - they were just waiting for a bed for me. I had a line put in my wrist, and bloods taken. The registrar told me I had to have a fallopian tube removed with the pregnancy. At first I didn't realise it would be different to a D&C, but then the surgeon was talking about keyhole surgery and that I might be in hospital for days - I'd never had a night apart from DD before, and the thought horrified me. And then I started having the thoughts of "what if" something goes wrong and I don't se DD again.
In the end, I had the surgery at 4.30pm the same day, having never left the hospital after the scan. I was home the next afternoon, and am now recovering at home. I think I'm still probably in shock, and haven't really processed the loss yet. I'm just glad I got home to be with DD quickly, as I was missing her so much.
After my surgery no one told me how it had gone until a gynae dr came and saw me the next day (I was told they would try and save the tube if the other looked damaged). The Dr read through the surgery notes, which said they hadn't checked my other tube as they'd mistakenly taken the probe out before checking it!!! So I just hope it's OK, or my chances of conceiving aren't so good! The Dr also shoved a colour pic of my ectopic pregnancy under my nose (without warning)- I was quite shocked!
Anyway, sorry if this is long and disjointed, I just wanted to share my experience, and maybe chat to others who have had similar. I am going to TTC again after the recommended 2 cycles, but trying to concentrate on healing for now. I know I was actually incredibly lucky that I didn't have any pain at all before the op, and that if I hadn't had the scan things could have been much, much worse.