Hi guys,
I had my 4th Mc 4 weeks ago and after my third i was referred for investigations now i must say that i had my appointment in feb and i only got my blood tests back this week and have a further appointment for the 15th of july. my local hospital has been realy shit. They have however found out the problem, i have Factor V Leiden and Possibly Protein S Deficiency (both blood clotting disorders) so i will have to probably take aspirin for the rest of my life and heparin when i am pregnant.
Me and DH have been trying for 5 yrs so we are getting alittle desperate now although we do have a 7yr old DD.
Jools its sounds like your hos is going to be great, after i had my third Mc i thought i would be under close care with the EPU but when i fell for the 4th time i had a scan at 7weeks which was all fine and basically told to go away, i never heard from them again until i had to go in for an ERPC for the MC. ( had a private scan at 10 and a half weeks that showed no HB). i still havent been told what to do if i fall again. i realy am considering making an complaint.
Anyway not over the Mc as yet, i find it very hard to keep it together but have to to, so everyone thinks i am ok but inside i'm realy not.
There is a song that realy fits what we have all been going through at least i think.
"The lights go out all around me, one last candle to keep out the night. And then the darkness surrounds me. I know i'm alive but i feel like i've died.
And all thats left is to accept that its over, my dreams ran like sand through the fists that i made. I try to keep warm but i just grow colder, i feel like i'm slipping away.
After all this has passed i still will remain.
After i have cried my last there will beauty from pain.
Though it won't be today someday i'll hope again and there'll be beauty from pain. You will bring beauty from my pain.
My whole world is the pain inside me the best i can do is just get through the day. and life before is only a memory. I wonder why God lets me walk through this place.
And though i can't understand why this happened i know that i will when i look back someday and see how you have brought beauty from ashes and made me as gold, purified through these flames.
After all this has passed i still will remain.
After ive cried my last there'll be beauty from pain.
Though it wont be today someday i'll hope again and there will be beauty pain.
Here I am at the end of me trying to hold to what i cant see. I forgot how to hope this nights been so long. I cling to the promise there will be a dawn.
Chorus again.
Its sung by superchicks if you go onto utube and type Beauty from pain.
some off you may think i am mad but sometimes songs feel like they have been written for me and what i have gone through.