My baby would have been 4 tomorrow

[MuffinBaker]

I can't believe how the time goes so quickly.

I was fortunate to conceive quickly and my next baby will be 4 in a couple of months, but I still think of the one I lost due now (and my other due before then) but feel guilty that I don't cry like I did.

It never goes away, does it? Mine would have been 2 this month.

Not sure what to say. I think with any type of loss or bereavement, you get to a place where you still think about it, but you don't cry. For instance, I can think of people who've died when the anniversary of their death comes around, but I don't cry like I did that first year. Time does heal.

My due date for the pregnancy I lost is coming up in a few weeks, and I know I'll be sad. I got pregnant again very quickly after too (21 weeks now), but it doesn't mean I don't think about the other one. I imagine the date will stick in my mind for years to come, but I know I can't feel guilty for the pain lessening over time.

Don't beat yourself up, you haven't forgotten the first one, it's just that time has lessened the pain, and that's totally normal.

I feel also the pain changes so it is different iygwim.