Just need to say this

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Cant say it out loud to anyone in RL - it sounds too bitter. I love my best friend so much, would do anything for her. Shes 20 weeks pregnant with her first and I am so incredibly jealous, but I was doing better, I was managing it - mainly by throwing myself in to fundraising for Tommys - a charity that works to prevent miscarriages and stillbirth. She found out yesterday shes having a girl - its just like an extra twist of the knife. Hard enough watching her pregnant - and now I know shes pregnant with a little girl, when I dont have my little girl. Its that ache in my chest.

My step sister and best friend were both pregnant at the same time as me and due at the time I would been due had I not miscarried. It was a very difficult period for me. I know that 'knife twisting slowly in your belly' feeling so well, yet it brings it's own awful feelings of guilt

Be very kind to yourself, and try hard to be kind to your friend. Try is all you can do.

The work for Tommys sounds really positive. You should be proud of yourself.

xx

Thanks. Sorry to hear of your mc. I spent the day with my friend today and I am ok when I am with her its the evenings when I am all alone it hits. Just had a wee cry and feel a bit better - well not better but you know what I mean, I think I needed a cry.

x

aww bless you

[squeeze]