mc on 6 weeks ago, would have been going into 2nd trimester, was hoping to feel better by now but just feeling worse

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mc at 6 weeks, had a week off work, expected to start picking up but after initial positive surge am beginning to sink.

Can't be bothered with anything, can't seem to cope with anything, having panic attacks and nightmares, feel like a total failure waste of space.

dd(2) hates me I'm sure I'm so nasty and irritable all the time, and trying to do a post grad and work and keep it all together, every time i hear someone is onto number 2 feels like a kisck in the teeth, esp when their 1st was way after mine!

Totally stupid, selfish and irrational I know but nearly punched ex colleague yesterday when she started going on about having them "close together". EVERYONE wants to know now, is difficult keeping it together when the "when's your 2nd then?" question keeps popping up.

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Have you thought of going to see your GP for some bereavement counselling? It may help for you to talk about it. There's nothing that you could have done. I think some people just don't know what to say and end up spurting out the first thing that pops into their head.
You need time to grieve. You have lost a child, even if it was early on in the pregnancy, you still had time to think about what could have been.