Sorry barbie1 for worrying you..I haven't been able to face mumsnet, but I am very touched that you are checking on me.
I am fine, for the main. The op was pretty good, much better physically (and emotionally as a knock on effect) than doing it naturally last time. The bleeding has been very light, no after pains, and I actually enjoyed the GA and the woozy after effects. Dp did come, and was a welcome bit of light relief as I was meant to be seen between 8 and 11, but didn't go for the op until 12.30, so that was a lot of time in a cubicle reading trashy magazines.
Apparently I got a 'paper cut' on my cervix so I was in there for 2 hours while they stopped the bleeding and put a stitch in...how on Earth do they get two hands up there to put a stitch in a cervix??
Emotionally, my mind is in shut down about the whole thing. No doubt things will change with time, but at the moment I am focusing on the here and now - my other children and the things I have to get done. It's working for the moment, even if it is not the advised method for a healthy grieving process!
Again, thank you for thinking of me, it does mean more to be thought of by someone who has gone through it recently than people who just feel sorry for me and say things like 'well, I suppose it's for the best, these things happen for a reason so there must have been something wrong' etc etc bla bla bla.