I had what i thought was a period around 10th of Feb then a break then 3 days of light spotting.
My hcg stopped rising properly and has only risen from 1800 to 2000 in 2 days
They still cannot see anything on the scan neither in my tube or womb
We left hospital yesterday after the doctor offered to keep me in overnight for observation stating she didnt want to give the mtx shot incase it's just a very early pregnancy as some hcg doesn't act normally.
Today I had another scan and still no baby so another doctor offered me mtx and suggested I take it
After researching I have gathered around 50% of eptopics resolve naturally and that 15 percent of pregnancies hcg levels don't rise as expected
I know both of these things together isn't good and this is likely eptopic and it could rupture again but after no babies, one ruptured eptopic and one miscarriage I'm hesitant to take mtx if there's a chance it could be viable.
Also they sometimes resolve naturally and the mtx has horrible side effects, isn't always effective and we won't be able to try again for a good while after
Not sure if im being delusional or not.
Also my last eptopic and miscarriage i had a horrible feeling before any bleeding even happened and this time I feel fine no bleeding just some period pains so I may be in denial due to this.
Does anyone have any similar experiences?
I just wanted to add that this is hard, not knowing is hard and it ofcourse feels unfair but I feel stronger than before and I'm not scared of the pain or disappointment anymore as I feel I can now get through it fine. In case anyone else is going through this, I know as humans we automatically try to self preserve by not hoping or loving or getting excited but it will be worth the hurt and the hurt isn't that bad in the end. Life hurts and it is luck of the draw, we cannot avoid the pain but we can live openly even though we know the pain may be coming xx