Hi everyone,
I wanted to get some things off my chest, and I thought this would be the most none judgemental place.
On Wednesday I found out I had a missed miscarriage. No heartbeat was found at the early pregnancy unit (had some bad cramping). I’ve been given the tablets to take at home and the second tablets are to be taken tomorrow.
im not overly sure how to feel. The pregnancy wasn’t planned and I was convinced it was what I wanted. I cried whenever I saw a pregnancy announcement, would imagine my life with my baby etc.
Since I was told about my miscarriage, I’ve not really felt much. I cried on the day, but since have felt ‘in different’? I go through stages of ‘oh, well I guess that’s that’ to ‘well, I’m kinda relived’. It’s really made me think do I want a child? Or was I just being swept up in the ‘this is what society tells you to do’.
My partner is supportive, he says he gets how I feel and that we don’t need children to complete our relationship, as we have a pretty good life now.
Im really confused and unsure about the entire thing. I feel like such an a hole for thinking the way I do, as I know some people are desperate for a child and I’m fortunate I was able to get pregnant, however I really don’t think I want to ever be pregnant again.