Is anyone else dreading the arrival of the new year?

[SomeMonstersEatTelly]

I thought I’d start a thread for anyone like me who is dreading it being 2026. I thought I’d have a new baby this spring which we lost a couple of months ago. Sitting here having a small cry because I can’t face it being the new year and thought I can’t be alone.

Anyone else having a miserable NYE and wanting to share?

It's important to cry and grieve what might have been. Sending unmumsnetty hugs. Remember that the new year is a fresh sheet and by this time next year everything may have changed.

Hi I’m so sorry you’re feeling like this. That was me last year I was devastated on new years with 4 consecutive miscarriages last year and it totally valid to feel that way on new years. But everything can change very quickly I’m holding my 10 week old this new years. There is always hope x

Hello feeling very similar here. We lost our little boy exactly 5 weeks ago now and the what ifs are feeling particularly heavy tonight. You’re definitely not alone. Sending love and hugs and here if you want to chat.

Sending huge hugs not this year but I lost my baby 5 years ago on the 30th of December at 15 weeks. I hemorrhaged badly which didn't help with the trauma.

I have my rainbow now who healed my heart massively he's 4 in the new year but I still find it tough going.

I would say as horrible and tough as it is it does get better with time. Rainbow baby anxiety is a very real thing but I found a lot of support on MN (just stay away from AIBU board)

@SomeMonstersEatTelly sending you all the love. It’s hard and it’s not fair. My baby loss years were some of the darkest of my life.

Hey, sorry to hear you’re so sad - baby journeys can be so heart breaking.

I have mixed emotions: we had our fourth and final baby loss this year. (Miracle three year old little boy was the joy in the middle thank goodness). But we always wanted two, and after a lot of postpartum issues with my thyroid that delayed things, we were overjoyed when we fell pregnant earlier this year and all seemed well. However in the end we lost a baby girl who had turner syndrome at ten weeks, and in turn our dreams of having a second baby were shattered. I haemorrhaged badly and it really frightened me after to learn this - avoided a blood transfusion but what was meant to be a standard ERPC resulted in me being so sick of weeks.

It absolutely broke my husband and I in half and I just can’t do it all anymore. It consumes me beyond the point of being healthy and is dramatically affecting my anxiety and mental health. I knew mentally and physically it was our last attempt at the time, but I think I hoped I’d heal enough to come round. I’ve been through so much already so what would one more attempt do. But alas it has not been the case, and for myself, not to mention my husband and son - I know it’s time to let it go and accept our life as a trio.

While I know in my heart it’s the right decision, I still cannot believe this year ended with such heartbreak and not the bay that was due two weeks ago.

Tonight I am feeling a lot of sadness - so sad that we not only lost a loved baby but our dreams of completing our family. However I am exhausted from the mental, emotional and physical burden of this chapter, and I am therefore full of relief to be done and hope that I’ll continue making my peace and being happy. Hope that in 2026 I’ll move from fear to trust and just let go a bit, stop fearing everything so much.

I’ve been in your shoes before, and I’ve tried to frame new years as a symbol of new life. In the past that has felt like the hope of creating new life, today it feels more like the hope of finding new life within myself as I move on from the sadness.

Good luck to you in 2026, I hope it brings you so much xxxx