Hi everyone,
not really sure why I’m posting just looking to vent. Last Friday I went to a private early scan when I should have been 7w3d as I was feeling anxious but I thought everything would be okay. I was told the baby was measuring 7w but with no heartbeat, I feel like I went into shock and was referred to my local EPU, earliest they can see me is tomorrow so it’s been a long 5 days and my body is showing no signs of naturally kicking in and dealing with it. I feel so emotionally whiplashed and raw. I have little to no support from my “partner” who ignored me as soon as he found out I was pregnant who I now think is happy and relieved that this has happened which is horrible. I feel so alone and almost like no one around understands as no one I know personally has experienced a miscarriage like this. I’m finding it hard to everyday function and have self certified for the week off work as I work with babies and the thought of going back is terrifying. I’ve been scared to leave home incase my body kicks in naturally which is someone emotionally I don’t think I can face and am looking at the surgical route once EPU confirms the loss tomorrow. It just feels cruel, I still have nausea and sore boobs, I can take a test which instantly comes back a strong positive. I’m thinking of going alone to hospital tomorrow and driving myself but I’m unsure if this is a good idea? I just feel like the dad would be no help whatsoever. Thanks for reading my rant I just don’t know how to navigate this time 😭