Feel so alone

[Fluffina]

I've had 4 miscarriages in quite a short period of time. The last one has been particularly traumatic as the bleeding dragged for 2 months, I had a surgery last week but still spotting and it just seems neverending.

And for none of those miscarriages my partner was physically there as he works abroad a lot and it always happened when he wasn't around. And I suddenly feel so so alone. I look back and although I was always focusing on being strong and moving on, I'm now feeling the cumulative effect of everything that happened whilst I was by myself and I'm struggling to cope. I feel tired and empty, like I don't have much left in me anymore. I can't imagine going through more grief by myself again. I'm now doing therapy but don't think it's helping much.

I’m so, so sorry for you losses
I know you are having therapy, but Tommy’s have midwives trained in bereavement support, and forums where others share experiences and support. It might help to talk to others who know how you feel, so you aren’t so alone.
Sending you virtual hugs

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So so sorry for your losses! It’s such a difficult time. Did you manage to have time off work/ time to yourself to grieve?
I had one miscarriage just over a month ago and it was such a shock. I recovered ok both physically and mentally but have not been ready to start trying again. Like you say it feels so hard to think about going through something like that again.
are you able to get further help/tests/ investigations if you’ve had recurrent miscarriages? Just thinking if it might bring a bit more reassurance.
It can be so isolating and definitely helps to speak with people who’ve been through it!
sending a virtual hug x

Thank you @HeyBert , I'll definitely have a look. It might be a good option when I'm struggling in-between therapy sessions.

@GreenApple121 I only took 3 days off with the last one, but I work from home so it's easier to put the mask on and carry on with things at my own pace. I've had investigations done but no conclusion, the suspicion is low egg quality so next step is IVF which I'm not yet ready for.
I just don't know anyone that has gone through this and I'm not sharing with people hence I feel a bit isolated, I know it's by choice, but I just don't think anybody will understand and so I spare them the awkwardness of not knowing what to say.
Virtual hug back, I hope this was all the heartache there is for you and you'll have a beautiful and successful pregnancy once you're ready to try again x