hi all im new here so not sure if its ok,i lost my son 27years ago i was 21&5days he was perfect he kicked 16wks exactly and was a little wriggler i loved every minute of being pregnant even though i was so ill i had to stop work because i kept going dizzy and vomiting which was put down to the baby is taking all the goodness so i thought it was normal,1morning i got up with terrible pains my partner said stay in bed ill ask at work is this normal so he did then when he came home i went the toilet and there was blood i rang the hospital they said come down straight away so we did they examined me and said the worst news possible i was in labour and they cant stop it my heart broke there and then because id read the pregnancy book i got like a bible so i was put in a room with meds to help with the pain that was 21st may 98 i remember these two days like it was yesterday at 10.15 22nd i told the midwife he had stopped kicking i was screaming hes gone hes gone because they couldnt interfere with my labour so that if he took 1 breathe he would be clasded as a stillborn but no they couldnt so they scanned me to confirm he had gone and then they could brake my waters and at 11.25am 22nd may 1998 i had my perfect 1lb baby boy he had 10 fingers 10 toes a lil widgey everythin i held him so tight i couldnt believe i just had the most beautiful baby ever and it hit me ive gotta leave him in the hospital hes going to be without his mum hes going to think i dont love him hes going to be all alone i want my baby i want to take him home please let me im sobbin texting this i had to leave him alone i was 18 at the time i was a baby meself but i was ready to be a mummy i was so excited i had all plans for him that would never be so 27years later ive lost my son callum then a double pregnancy where u get pregnant 1month then pregnant the next month which i didnt know was possible but it is i lost them 2 pregnancysthen had my lacie then a mmc then my daughter sienna-jae then a mmc then a son cohen and my family is near enough complete my kids come to callums grave with me they spk about him and ive got his pic and stuff in my room ill leave forget my boy for as long as i live xxx