Hey I just wanted to start a thread on this topic incase anyone else is feeling like me or has any advice for me.
i recently found out i was pregnant, it was a huge shock as my children are 21 & 19 but i was over the moon as 2 years ago i tried everything and it just didn’t happen for us and we sort of put it to bed and I did say if it didn’t happen by time I was 40 and I turned 40 and found out the following days after.
as it’s been so long since I was “mummy” and obviously I was very young when I last was, I was in a rubbish relationship mentally unstable suffered with horrendous HG for both pregnancies for the whole 9 months and had pre natal depression I didn’t have a good time, so this felt like I was doing it for the first time, as an adult in such a loving relationship and in a whole world of a better situation…I’m of course still “Mum” but to two financially independent children..so it’s like I’ve been me again for a few years now, and as soon as I seen them two lines my whole identity changed I felt like Mummy again and I guess now I’ve suffered an ectopic pregnancy and had surgery 2 weeks ago I’m struggling with switching back to pre positive pregnancy test, I still feel like I’m in the body of a pregnant woman, the way I hold myself the way I feel 🥺 it’s so hard. I know it’s early days and I’m probably being unkind to myself but I look in the mirror and for the first time I got ready yesterday did my makeup, put my lashes on and did my hair and one of my fave very new outfits and I just didn’t feel like the person who last wore them before them two lines and before I went through the last two weeks, I don’t feel like her anymore. It’s like I’m still telling myself I’m pregnant and I feel like a weirdo.
has anyone else experienced this kind of identity crisis? I feel like I’m going mad it’s the first time I’ve ever been through anything like this and it’s really hard…I just want to so desperately be a Mummy xx