MC Complications. Struggling

[Matthew54]

I should start with the fact that I am okay and blessed that I have access to modern medicine.

I started bleeding out at home and had to get blue lighted to hospital after a MMC. I’ve been severely injured before but not being able to stop bleeding was terrifying. The entire house stank like blood.

I had a D&C and am “recovering” at home. I feel retraumatized from what happened. I find out I have a MMC, start to cope, and then start hemorrhaging everywhere the day before my scheduled surgery.

I miss my baby so much. I want to try again but what if this happens again? I have never felt so mortal or temporary as I did while soaked in blood waiting for surgery.

I'm really sorry to hear this and hope you're OK... 💐

It’s hard. I miss being pregnant.

Didnt want to rear and run, I’m so sorry to read this OP.. Sounds like you’ve had a very traumatic time. It’s such an awful feeling and something you can’t describe to people who have never been through it before.

I had a MMC with my first ever pregnancy in December last year and had to go through it all over Christmas, I completely feel your pain. Take some time to heal, look after yourself and try again when you are ready. Everybody is different and we all cope in different ways💓

I know how traumatic it can be, I’m currently 5 weeks, and it’s scary to be pregnant again but I found what helped me through it once I felt semi normal again was trying, luckily 2 months later we fell pregnant.

Please be kind to yourself and do things that make you happy during this difficult time, as hard as it is 💐