@Blondepeach I completely understand that. I got pregnant for the first time at the same time as two of my best friends, who both now have gorgeous daughters, and as happy as I am for them, it hurts to witness what I could've had. It really can feel so isolating sometimes, so it's really comforting to speak to other's that understand the pain, trauma and emotions.
It sounds unusual that the test would be getting darker. Have you spoken to your local EPU? They have always scanned me pretty quickly when I've started bleeding and then taken blood tests to confirm the miscarriages.
Sorry to hear your GP has been fobbing you off, I think that's a very common experience sadly. To be honest, as soon as I got a referral to Tommy's I stopped relying on my GP and local Recurrent Miscarriage Clinic completely. Tommy's have felt like the only ones I can rely on.
Speaking of RMC, your GP or local EPU should be able to refer you to them now that you've had three. I haven't had the best experience with mine but it's always good to have people looking out for you.
It's so daunting. I found researching has been really helpful - I've bought about 3 books now, which have helped me rule out things I definitely don't think is causing it and given me more of a push to get tested for the things I think it could be. The more I learn, the overwhelmed I feel.
Of course, I don't mind sharing (though bear in mind I'm no doctor!). I've been taking:
- Seeking Health Optimal Prenatal (it has 800mcg of methylfolate, which is meant to be absorbed more easily than folic acid)
- CoQ10 ubiquinol (for egg quality) 400mg a day
- Omega 3 - 500mg
- R-alpha lipoic acid (200mg)
- N-acetylcsteine (600mg)
- I'm also supplementing with extra vitamin C, B12, vitamin D3 as my prenatal has less than the dose recommended in the ISWTE I mentioned before
And my husband is taking:
- Proceive Max Men
- CoQ10 ubiquinol (200mg)
- Omega 3 - 1500mg
- R-alpha lipoic acid (200mg)
- L-carnitine (1000mg)
- N-acetylcysteine (600mg)
Truthfully, I have no idea what R-alpha, l-carnitine and n-acetylcsteine do, but they were recommended in the book (based on scientific research), so figured it was worth a try.
I've also given up alcohol and caffeine, and am now considering whether I should cut out dairy, gluten and sugar too to try and reduce inflammation. I'm struggling with that though as I feel like I'm cutting out all joy, what is life without cheese, chocolate and wine?!
Depending on what's in your prenatal already, I'd look at adding CoQ10, Omega 3, Vitamin D3 and maybe B12 and vitamin C, but definitely do your research first! xx