Hi guy's so to keep it short i am a mum to 3 lovely boys youngest is 10 i am 37 me and dh had always been open to 4. In oct 22 we opted to do natural family planning just as i guess we kind of hoped for a slip up didnt want to be using bc anymore well over a year later it August this year it happened and i got pg slightly shocked and in denial at first but turned to excitement and love very quickly when we seen the first flutters on a scan at 6wks 3 days the love we felt was immense but unfortunately i later found my baby stopped growing at 8 weeks at a 10 week scan i had a d&c and the whole thing has just been heartbreaking a struggle to accept. Me and dh now feel its what we wanted and we should ttc but people around us say looseing it was a blessing in disguise and why would we want to start all over again all very negative and cruel but im hearing so often these comment's i feel in the wrong for wanting to follow my heart and try again
We have so much time love and patience still to give good family dynamics and i have been fortunate to be a sahm for all my children so they have never lacked attention and love we have provided the best life possible and houseing space isn't an issue anymore as we moved to a large family home before doing natural family planning we cat find the negatives or reasons not too. Ending our family feels heavy on my heart but im scared now with so many negative opinions am I wrong to want this