I know I am talking nonsense and no one on here nor myself will ever know. I had a miscarriage 6 months ago.
It's started with very light bleeding that the EPU said I could have an early scan for. The scan confirmed pregnancy but said I was measuring abit small. I wasn't concerned at the time as my cycles were long so I explained I did think I probably ovulated later in my cycle. They suggested I return two weeks later. On that scan despite the foetus growing they said it was not enough and the pregnancy was not viable.
I was offered another scan 10 days later where they confirmed the pregnancy was not viable.
I wasn't given much information really as to why and to be honest I didn't ask. I didn't even ask if they could detect a heartbeat. I think I could have been in shock maybe.
The following week I went in for medical management and miscarried in the hospital. I didn't expect to see much maybe blood clots but from the comments of it being an unviable pregnancy and not growing enough I was shocked to see a foetus with clear tiny feet/arms. Having looked at images online I would say 10/11 weeks. Even then I did not question/say or ask the midwife's anything. Also they were different from the ones who had done my scan.
The last few months I have for some reason started to feel like they were wrong. I know I talking rubbish but I have a photo of the foetus and I feel like it looked the correct size for where I probably was in my cycle. I often wonder if they didn't take onboard my long cycles.
Is this just some kind of denial? Has anyone else ever felt like that. I often wish I had waited to miscarry naturally then I would know for definite.