I dont really expect anyone to reply, but I just need to voice my thoughts.
I'm currently going through a chemical and its brought back such a lot of grief.
My history is:
Pregnancy 1: mc at 8w 3d
Pregnancy 2: ds (now 8)
Pregnancy 3: TFMR for a severe chromosomal abnormality at 22w 3d
Pregnancy 4: dd (now 3)
Pregnancy 5: chemical pregnancy, 4w 4d
This last pregnancy wasn't planned, we used protection. I'd managed to finally tell myself I was happy with 2 and no more children for us.
Now I'm in a right state. Wanting another baby. Grieving for the babies we've lost. I just feel so lost and empty.
My dh doesn't want more children, he was very upset when we got the positive this time.
More accurately, he's going through a lot and would like another child but can't face it.
I'm 34, so I feel like considering our history it would be mad to have another.
Does any of that rambling make any sense to anyone?