If you're reading this following a miscarriage then I want you to know that I see you and I'm sending you the biggest hug.
I wanted to share my experience in the hope it might make someone feel less alone and less scared.
We found out at a private scan last week at 8+2 that our baby had no heartbeat. We were referred to Kingston EPU where they sadly confirmed this. Although devastating, the staff at Kingston were wonderful and could not have been kinder. I made the decision to go for the surgical management option as it sounded like it would be quickest and least traumatic.
I am so glad that I did. The toughest part for me was taking the tablets in the morning to prepare the cervix. Purely psychological, it felt so final even though the pregnancy hand ended a week earlier. I had no pain though, the procedure was done under general anaesthetic, was dignified and I felt no pain. I'm now at home with moderate bleeding (less than a period) and a huge sense of relief.
The sadness will stay with me, probably forever in some way, though I'm sure it will ease in time. I am immensely lucky to have a wonderful partner who has been my absolute rock and held me while I snotty cried. I hope everyone else has someone just as kind. Either way, feel free to rage here, ask questions, compare experiences. I find it hugely cathartic to talk about it. All the best, you will get through this.