Have never posted myself, but during a recent miscarriage at 10 weeks (i was away on a work trip to the other side of the world and quite isolated as a result) this became a real source of info and so support for me. Wanted to pay that forward
I have a 2 yr old already and was quite sad at being away from him on the trip. Having said bye, at the airport an hour before take off, i wiped and noticed a tiny amount of red blood. I had no pain etc beforehand, and no scans- just a booking in appointment, but i knew light bleeding wasnt abnormal and went on the 24hr flight. My first pregnancy was straight forward- had no experience with loss etc
When there i noticed intermittently some blood when wiping. There wasnt a lot i could do. I stayed calm, convinced myself it will be ok, and focused on the job i was doing. I noticed the bleeding increase, forcing me to buy pads after 2 days. Although i could still wear only 1 per day.
Then i noticed when i went to the toilet that seemed to release a lot of fresh blood. My heart sank. I went back into the meetings i was running and the job to be done. Readying myself for what i suspected might be coming- but deep down hoping i was wrong
3/4 days later more blood. Then it dawned on me that i dont feel pregant, and yes this is likely a miscarriage. I didnt want to share it with colleagues or worry my family. So went on alone
That night i remember severe cramping. Foggy memory but i woke up and there was a lot of blood. Tmi- but when i stood up i felt the "sac" leave my body and went to the bathroom.
Queue a major clean up. I just went into work mode. Flushed the embryo without thinking about it. I had a work call to run in 2 hrs and was leaving that hotel to continue the trip for a week
Bled v heavily for an hour. Panicked about how id keep this away from colleagues - mostly men. Luckily the bleeding lightened quickly to. Heavy period. And i jumped on a work call and ran and entire meeting. - what us women must do
I was managing but when my husband mentioned i would be on mat leave soon i broke a bit and told my family. I was also able to share discretely with female colleague- mainly in case i had health issues as i was out there alone
I knew sepsis was what i needed to watch- temparature etc. But i was very lucky. It all passed naturally
I carried on with my work trip. Comprtmentalised and so so desperately wanted to hold my 2yr old who i was now more grateful for than anything
When i got home i held him tightly. And felt a bit numb. The distance, hectic schedule and extremeness of it all made it feel like it had happened to someone else- and i was angry for them and what theyd had to do. I was Actually "fine", until someone asked me when i was due. And i felt my heart break a little bit. And now im ok agai.
I bled for about 2 weeks. And had no follow up. No scans. Nothing. Nurses said it happens and it sounds like its done. Just threw away my booking in documents and carried on with life. Im fine now and since had a period 1 month after
Thats what my miscarriage looked like day to day from first bleed to end. I hope that helps someone reading who, like me, has no clue and is away from any support/ help