Hello,
It seems that iv been depressed for sometime. Possibly before the loss due to longterm ttc and now since the loss has been more consistent and to the point that I feel I'd be better off dead. I'm not suicidal because suicide has affected my family before and I couldn't do that to anyone in my life. I have a good life, granted some stress from ongoing DIY renovations, PhD, preschooler, work etc. I wake up each day with no motivation. I have lost all purpose in my life, even though my life is full of things that previously I felt a lot of love and passion for. I feel worthless. I feel like I'm a failure and that iv lost my way. I'm also struggling with a skin condition that has cause me to not want to leave my house. My self esteem in 0. I'm at a stage now where I'm not sure I can continue like this. Iv always been afraid of antidepressants but I'm thinking I have no other option. Nothing else seems to work. Has anyone else experienced similar with fears and gone on to have success with pills and still managed to conceive etc?
Thanks