Really intense delayed grief reaction

[ArtfulRubyKoala]

I just got my first period after my mmc and I feel broken. I have been fine until now. Due to extreme complications following a full term still birth 6 years ago I didn’t think I could get pregnant, and when I found out I was I knew it was highly unlikely to be successful so I didn’t really bond with the pregnancy and was pretty unemotional throughout the whole miscarriage.
So why do I now feel so sad and so angry. I can’t stop feeling like this and I hate it. I want it to go away. I feel so alone and I don’t know what to do.

I have recently gone through a miscarriage which I had been disconnected from. I lost a baby at 16 weeks last year and so when I got pregnant this year I automatically went into self preservation mode. Throughout the whole process I was numb felt nothing at all. I’ve since seen a counsellor who explained the grief process to me and the first stage is numbness and disbelief. The feelings will always come. I’m currently going through to angry and upset stage, but I prefer this than feeling nothing at all.

im so sorry for your previous loss, I cannot being to imagine. You are remarkable for everything you have been through.

Gosh, you've been through so much! Sending a big hug.