Silently screaming!

[Gemh4]

Hi all, I feel like I'm stuck inside some nightmare right now ....I'm 38, which is considered oldish to be pregnant for some reason. I found out I was pregnant with my 5th baby on 1st March and since then it feels like everyone and everything have dragged their heels. While waiting for my dating scan (my personal dates with midwife had me at 12 weeks) I started having pink discharge, which eventually became brown tinged accompanied my strong period cramps, 111 sent me to emergency care and I ended up having an external and internal scan. Yolk sac is measuring far too large, they can see something that resembles a fetal pole but it's too small for sac size and there is no heartbeat. I have to wait 11 days for another scan. I am passing small clots, bright red, and my pink/brown discharge is now bright red, but only makes an appearance when I wipe myself. They did say they could see a bleed site directly below sac and that I was measuring approx 8 weeks, but I know 100% you can see a heartbeat even at that size. The nurse hugged me so tight and started crying whilst apologising and said she was sorry but to try and keep some hope.
The waiting is excruciating, I just want to know either way so I don't live on false hope for the next 2 weeks. My boobs no longer hurt and only feel slightly uncomfortable and they have went down in size. I have no sickness anymore, I have cramp, like a level or two higher than a bad period.
Anyone had any similar experiences? I have had 2 mcs before but they seemed to be over before i had time to realise what was happening.
Sorry for the long post

[LER2023]

My latest mc sounds similar, my sac was measuring 8 weeks but feotus was measuring 6 weeks and 2 days and i had a major haematoma around the sack.
Unfortunately when i went for my first scan with EPAU they had told me there and then i will miscarry and that they were so sorry.
Went i went in the next week with the most blank emotion, they didnt quite understand why, after i told them 4 times id already been told it was a miscarrage and ive had to come to terms with that in the week id been away from the EPAU they were still confused by my blank emotions.

I want to give you all the hope there is OP, i really do, and in pregnancy your age is 'old' because they say that eggs dont mature as well after 30's? But in actual terms. No you arent old at all.

[Jenroxy5]

@Gemh4 ive been the same I had spotting pink then brown then red it stops starts for around 8 days not no major bleeding or clots but today I’ve had nothing so far. I’m getting rescanned after a week tomorrow morning yesterday I broke down accepting it’ll be a miscarriage I’m 6 weeks today and my other Mc like you were heavy bleeding straight away no spotting. My yolk sac was not present yet just gestational sac my symptoms have pretty much gone too only slight discomfort in my boobs and the nausea is still there only in the morning but very mild. X