Sorry to hear about this, its such an awful time.
When i had my first natual miscarriage, i started spotting on 24/12/2022.
I then started bleeding fully and really badly on 28/12/2022, went for a scan at EPU where they had confirmed baby was coming away and i was starting to lose the sack, i was bleeding for 6 weeks losing the baby, the heavy bleeding had lasted another week and was 100% confirmed on 05/01/2023 that the miscarriage had almost finished but i needed a bit of a push to complete it so had to opt for medical management.
My second miscarriage was 03/08/2023 after finding out at the end of June.
I started spotting and i instantly went to the EPU and was told baby wasnt growing quick enough for their liking and was looking to be another miscarriage.
I was 5+3 on the 26th of July and was then 5+6 on 03/08/2023, so had to be terminated before anything started properly as i said the first miscarriage was very painful, i was doubled over in agony with each small contraction that ususlly people say is like period pains. I can handle period pains, i can handle toothache and thats probably worse pain for anyone to have, yet i couldnt handle the first miscarriage, i was terrible.
Im now pregnant again as of 06/02/2024 with our rainbow baby, or our special baby that we like to call it.
We've passed a milestone and managed to get to nearly 10 weeks! I havent had a scan just yet or seen the midwife.
Both my miscarriages happened after my midwife appointments. So shes just a bad omen🤣
But im feeling very different this time compared to my other pregnancies that never got past 8 and a half weeks (LMP time) we're now hitting 10 weeks and im due to have a private scan soon! Ive not had any bleeding, just pure symptoms.
Its so hard to think about having another, having the worry in your head about the next one.
They say miscarriages arent common.. because nobody talks about them! Its just such a taboo subject, but theyre more common than you'd think.
You will have your special baby, your rainbow baby and when you do you'll be scared, im not saying it isnt a scary experience, but with the amount of support in your personal life and amount of support people give you on MN is what helps you plod along. Theres a thread, which is i believe support after a previous loss, its an incredibly supportive thread, we have all had losses and we just talk about the worries and what we're currently going through whether its a loss or a current pregnancy, its a support thread, i recommend looking into support threads to help you. Speak to family and friends about whats happened, dont keep it bottled up. Its hard to talk about, but they were still your babies, its still a loss and something that you need to keep talking about to keep those babies alive in your memory.
Sending you so much love and many MN hugs. If you ever need a chat you can private message me and i'll try to get back to you when i can.
Everything will be okay and you will be okay. It just takes time and support, im sorry again OP❤️💐 x