I don't usually post, but I wanted to come on and share my experience of my recent miscarriage. I came on here when I felt completely alone in my darkest hours and I found similar threads incredibly comforting just after I miscarried and it was incredibly comforting in an incredibly dark and shocking time - comforting to know other women had gone through something similar. I hope this will help someone else in their time of need.
I had a miscarriage just over two weeks ago, at 10 weeks +4 days. I had my booking appointment on the Monday, then on the Tuesday afternoon I had some light spotting - I hadn't had any spotting with my son, so I felt alarmed. I'd also felt really strange earlier in the day - all of my usual pregnancy symptoms (nausea and so on) had stopped that morning. I tried not to panic and phoned the helpline at the maternity ward. They were reassuring and explained some women do have some bleeding at about 10 weeks, so just to monitor it and it should be fine. I had a little more that evening when I went to the toilet (on wiping), but I still tried to stay calm.
I woke up at 4am that night, needing the loo. Sorry this is going to be a little graphic but I hope it can help someone else going through the same thing. I sat on the toilet to do a wee and - whoosh - what felt like everything came out. I quickly held toilet paper between my legs and looked - there was a considerable amount of blood, clots, solids - my brain didn't let me look at it for long - instinct forced me to flush it all down the loo. I burst into tears and thought I was going to faint - my husband came out onto the landing as I called him. I was kneeling down with my head on the floor so I didn't faint - it must have been shocking for him. Then over the next 2 hours I had cramping and more clots passing through and I kept going to the loo when it felt like large clots were coming. I phoned the maternity helpline again and they were very supportive, explaining that it sounded like a miscarriage, and to phone again first thing.
This week it will be 3 weeks since that night and I was told I need to do a pregnancy test to check it is negative - if it is positive I have to contact the maternity ward again, if it is negative it means everything has passed. I had bleeding a bit like a period for about a week or so afterwards - on about the 4th or 5th day I had some huge tissue like solids come out - that was unexpected and really shocked me too.
I just wanted to say to anyone out there reading this and/or going through something similar - you can do this. It was awful - the worst thing that's ever happened to me - but you can do this. Women are amazing!
I'm now still processing it all - it was all such a shock and to go from being 10 weeks and nearly at my first scan, to going to nothing at all was heart-breaking, shocking, just awful. I still cry when I'm alone and it all comes rushing back. Any tips on how to process it all and deal with this would be very welcome.