I wasnt sure which board to post in as my situation spans a few really. Also not sure what I'm asking, suppose I'm hoping to find some comfort amongst people who can relate.
I'm almost 43 and DH have tried for a baby for almost 10 years now. In that time we had 1 chemical pregnancy 9.5 years ago a d the. 5 failed rounds of ICSI, the majority resulted in positive pregnancy tests but no heartbeat at subsequent scans 6/7 weeks.
I have low AMH and DH has had mixed sperm results.
By the end of 2018 we decided that was enough and started to accept it wasnt going to happen. Tried to enjoy life and stopped tracking everything. Still a healthy sex life but no positive tests.
Until the beginning of this month. I was shocked to have a very late period and then positive tests. Was given steroids, progesterone and blood thinners by recurrent miscarriage clinic.
Sadly, I have started bleeding with clots and cramps this weekd so i know it's over and have been preparing for that anyway (as best you can when also trying to be hopeful). My scan is on Tuesday so I know that will be a case of ensuring thers nothing to be concerned about, not hoping for a miracle.
Last year we'd finally decided to explore adoption and by Christmas, we were really starting to feel excited about the future. I'm just so shocked, confused, sad, angry.
How can this have happened now after all this time? And do we have a hope of a biological or is my age and history enough to say no. I know people have babies at 43 but our history makes me think it's just not feasible.
Has anyone had a similar experience?