I was 12 weeks today (Friday). I had a massive bleed on Tuesday night, and passed a large bit of tissue which didn't look like a baby. I called EPAC in the morning and they saw me that day. I was given a super quick scan, just on the tummy, and my baby was alive. He was the size of a 12ish week baby, he was strong and moving. The gentleman that scanned me didn't look for the reason for the bleed, and told me he wouldn't do an in-depth scan as I was due to have my 12 scan on the Saturday. I then saw two midwives, who assured me that it was just one of those things, that the baby was fine and that I should be happy. I asked them about my cervix (I had a LLETZ 10 months ago and a very large amount of cervix removed). I said that it felt weak and that I was 'aware' of it at all times, my cervix felt heavy. My son (second child of 3) was born prematurely as my waters broke early. They said it would make no difference and that they like giving good news, told me I could go home.
I woke up at 3am this morning, in agony and bleeding, my baby died. My cervix had dilated and there was nothing they could do.
I feel so let down, I don't know what to do. I got to hold him and say goodbye, and he looked healthy. I can't help but wonder if the outcome would have been different if they had at least tried to find the reason for the bleeding and pain.