Had my D&C today and don't know how to feel

[Winnipeggy]

This was my 3rd mmc, I have one living daughter who i adore more than I can say.

My first 2 happened before I had my DD, the first was a shock, and a devastatingly long drawn out process involving multiple hospital trips. I had a D&C for the second which was better physically and I think I recovered emotionally quicker.

I had a D&C today for my 3rd and I just don't know how to feel after this one. I was so sad when I found out, and since then I've been blocking it out, with just a couple of wobbles. I know this may not be healthy but I'm scared I will spiral if I dwell on it. I also just don't want to be sad. I want to accept it and move on quickly. Has anyone else felt this way? That they just don't want to grieve?

I think I feel guilty for thinking this way.

I think it’s fine to get on with things and not dwell too much. You can revisit it when you feel stronger, your hormones have settled and it’s not as raw.
I had a mmc and d&c a few years ago around new year. I think of that baby every NY and honour him/ her in my own way.
Do whatever you need to get through it.

Thank you, that's very wise. Am definitely very hormonal as my body showed zero signs of miscarrying naturally. So might be a rough couple of weeks either way.

So sorry for your loss Winnypeggy. I had an MMC last year. First and much wanted baby. I just wanted to move on to be honest. I was distraught and really shocked but just want to try again really