Hi!
I suffered my first chemical at 6 weeks in July first cycle TTC. We tried for the next few cycles and unfortunately we didn’t get pregnant until this month which as of yesterday was another chemical… I have only had one day of bleeding this time around with a few small clots tmi, whereas last time I bled like a period for a week and cramped the whole time - so very different both times.
between my first chemical I had some milky discharge when I squeezed my nipples and literally the tiniest amount so I stopped and it stopped - I thought I might have a prolactin issue but also think I’m just fixating on that bc I’m sad and looking for something to blame.
I found TTC really difficult I get super fixated on it and I’m super impatient so every day feels like a year. I was estactic to get pregnant again and super naiive thinking everything went wrong before so obviously it won’t now. I’m terrified of giving blood so have tried to avoid going for tests but I’m only 23 and DH is 24 going on 25 so it really shouldn’t be an issue for us age wise.
The first chemical I thought something was wrong with baby but now I’m thinking it’s me. Work has been lovely giving me some time off but I’m so depressed I just cry all day but I feel like I can’t wait to TTC again I just want to be pregnant again I miss it even thought it was only a small time, I know it sounds stupid.
I don’t have any hope that we will conceive straight away as it took us 4 months after the first chemical. I just feel so hopeless and don’t know what to do anymore.
Sorry for the long post :(