Hi @AnxiousPoster, I'm sorry for your loss and that you also find yourself here. I also had a partial molar pregnancy and found out at my 12 week scan. That was about six months ago now, and it feels strange to think back to that time: I know that I felt in so much pain and hopeless, but I can't accurately remember how I felt now if that makes sense. What I am trying to say, is that you won't always feel like you do right now, but right now you probably feel really scared and confused and sad, and that's normal. But you won't always feel like this.
I was cleared to start trying again just before Christmas, but we decided not to try again immediately as we didn't want to be in the two week wait over Christmas, and tbh, I just wasn't ready. It took about four months for my hcg levels to get to negative, but my D&C did not fully work and I had what they refer to as "retained products" and so I think that is why it took a while. Some people do reach negative within weeks rather than months.
I feel in a much better place now, though I am still sad about what happened, and probably always will be, but I feel ready to try again now and hopeful about what will happen.
It's been the longest but also the shortest six months of my life, and if I could give you any advice, it would be to let yourself feel whatever it is that you're feeling. Lean on people close to you, but prepare yourself for the fact that no one you know will "get it". In my experience, no one knew what a molar pregnancy was, and they definitely did not understand how it affected me emotionally. That's not their fault, but it was hard at times. Don't let anyone dismiss or minimise your feelings. There is a group on Facebook called "my molar pregnancy support group" which helped to validate what I was feeling and made me feel less alone and crazy.
There is a lot of information to try and get your head around while you are grieving, so I would also say take it a day or week at a time.
Feel free to PM me if you need to chat 💜