Recurrent misscarriages

[Ifonlyxx]

I'm currently pregnant after 3 consecutive misscarriages all back to back and I'm feeling really crap about the constant feeling of morning sickness sore boobs and headaces. Does anyone else feel like it's so unfair to keep experiencing the same things over and over with no successful pregnancy at the end of it. I fell pregnant straight away coming off contraception and then lost twins. It was a MMC at 12 week scan four out they stopped growing at 6 weeks and I had the absolute worse case of tiredness, metallic taste in my mouth, headace, sore breasts. I then was delayed in bleeding so this took another month before it was over. Then fell pregnant straight away with no period in-between and unfortunately lost that baby too at 6 weeks. Had an early scan to date due to no period in between and my HCG was through the roof. I had severe morning sickess and sore breasts then as soon as I had my scan it all suddenly stopped. (I think the realisation of a misscarriage) then I bled for 3 weeks straight. I waited this time for a period. And I had one period then fell pregnant again and now should be 7 weeks today. I have not stopped being sick since I did a test 2 weeks ago and have severe hunger and really bad headaces. My breasts are tender but not as sore. Anyway.. I'm just feeling so fed up of being constantly at the worst part of pregnancy- full of symptoms and just not progressing to have an actual baby. It sucks so much. On top of this I haven't shared with family or friends so only my partner knows what it's been like and hiding it is becoming so difficult ive started to isolate myself and keep making up I have a sickness bug. I also find this has to hide from work and having so many scan appointments etc theyr getting a bit annoyed with me. I did say my last MC it was due to a MC but I don't want to really say I'm going through this repeatedly. I almost feel a bit embarrassed about it. I also worry they will not want me to work there if I'm trying for a baby and having so much time off. IV had 5 weeks in total and about 6 afternoons for scans. It sucks so much. Anyone else feeling the same.

Sorry for the long rant. I don't really know what IL achieve I'm writing this but just need to get it out to someone other than my partner.

Thanks for reading.

Sorry you've been through so much. I've had 2 missed miscarriages (one at 11 weeks, one at 10 weeks) and it sucks going through early pregnancy and then not getting to even have a bump let alone a baby, feels so lonely doesn't it. Have you spoken to your EPU about getting scans, if you need progesterone etc? After recurrent miscarriages they should be able to help out. I really hope that this is a sticky baby for you x

That's so sad I'm so sorry to hear that. It's such a cruel world isn't it. I'm having a scan in the morning at the recurrent misscarriage clinic and I feel like even if it goes well I still will be worried every scan after. I haven't been offered anything yet at all just been given extra scans. I'm not sure what I have to do to get any medicines to help assist but hopefully tomorrow I can ask about that stuff. I just hate how I feel I'm either having pregnancy symptoms like really severe or I'm bleeding and having a MC. IV been in a cycle or the two since Christmas and I know I should give my body a break I just want a baby so bad and I feel like turning 31 ina. Couple of weeks means time is against me. On top of that the weigh gain is unreal. I'm not sure if it's hormones or from over eating in the early stages but IV put on over a stone since Christmas!

Its so so tough - you’re doing brilliantly even though it feels like the darkest place.

Ive found these boards to be really helpful in times of need because many people on here understand and can offer that space to listen.

I’ve had 3 miscarriages consecutively and they’re so cruel.

sending you love for you and your partner tomorrow at your scan xx

I know it's just such a sad time. I find them useful aswell but sometimes I can end up spiralling and becoming obsessive as I wait between scans and keep searching for answers from other people's experience and it can make it harder too. It does however make me feel comfort that other people do understand the frustration and loss aswell. Oh bless you! I'm sorry to hear that. It's terrible isn't it 😞. Thank you it's hard to be positive because everytime even with lots of symptoms it's not got to plan wish I could just fast forward to the 2nd or 3rd trimester. It really ruins the joy of the process when you feel anxious and not sure if it will go to plan the whole time.

@Ifonlyxx totally get what you’re saying there - they can be helpful or just a minefield of worry. It’s so hard not compare your journey with others’.

Youre right about the symptoms - and the joy of pregnancy is ruined after loss. It’s all so incredibly unfair and really really hard to navigate. I get where you’re coming from - none of my pregnancies have ended happily either. Some days are harder than others. You got this!

I am so sorry for your loss, the worst girl gang ever is a podcast/ Instagram where they talk about miscarriage, I found this really helpful. I think it’s best to tell your employer and family and friends, you need support it’s a traumatic event but I don’t think people understand until they experience it for themselves. Do what you think is best but support even from strangers is helpful 🤍🤍

I will check it out. I know i think if this doesn't go to plan this time I will likely have to I just feel like everyone around me tells me to stop trying and give my body a break and I find it quite unhelpful. I think wether I wait 6 months or a year the inevitable is going to happen so I'd rather get on with it and get closer to actually having a baby. Does that make sense. I just told twice when it happened the first two times and I don't want to hear "stop trying" it breaks my heart even more.

I have a scan in 4 hours and I'm so nervous. I hope it goes ok.

I just wanted to update. Went to my scan and baby has a heart beat at 6 weeks 4 days so really pleased. Although still anxious I'm glad it's gotten this far!

Really pleased your scan went well OP. Just keep taking 1 day and 1 week at a time. Sending all the sticky positive baby thoughts!x

Im sorry for your losses@Ifonlyxx, that all sounds so hard. Im really glad your scan today went well thats really positive!

I can relate a bit as had 2 consecutive miscarrages this year and now pregnant again. I had previously been told the early pregnancy unit would see me immediately if I got pregnant again and prescribe progesterone and aspirin but now they say they wont see me until 7 weeks....its frustrating. Also it feels like Ive been stuck in early pregnancy forever.

I will keep everything crossed for you, and hope it all goes really well🤞

Thank you! Oh that sucks so much ☹️ my scan yesterday was at the recurrent misscarriage clinic for having 3 mc. They scanned me and then told me they can keep scanning me every 1-2 weeks as much as I like and mentioned progesterone but said that they wouldn't give me that unless I bled. We had a talk about aspirin and told me they wouldn't give me that unless they had a clear reason for mc and thought it would help. IV read loads of here that people ask for it and get given it or progesterone but they basically said while I'm pregnant they won't experiment and if I start to bleed they can then try progesterone but haven't mentioned aspirin at this point and that if I misscarry they will keep the tissue and have a look at genetic factors but that's all they can do at this point. I have another scan booked for 5th September then a dating scan on the 22nd. Hopefully it all goes well this time and I don't need anything. But I find it strange that they wouldn't offer me anything yet. They said in their words "we wouldn't experiment on you while pregnant" odd choice of words.... Do you think they won't see you until 7 weeks as it's too early before to see anything? In my experience they always have scanned me around 6 weeks and then just tell me to come back after 2 weeks as they can't tell at that stage. So could this be why? It's horrible isn't it. It's worse that I get such bad symptoms and it doesn't even seem to mean it's going well so that really sets me back too. I hope your pregnancy is really healthy and successful!! Xxx

@Ifonlyxx yes Ive also seen lots of people offered progesterone and/or aspirin immediately, and then others being refused-- its annoying that theres no standard guidelines for this things!

Yes I think I wont be offered a scan til 7 weeks as its too early-- had hoped to see a consultant before then but will just have to hope baby stays put until then!

Thats so great you can have such regular scans, that must be reasurring. I read somewhere that having closer monitoring/more frequent appointments really reduces the risk of another miscarriage.

My scan is also the 5th of September :) I hope things continue to go well for you, I understand the anxiety but hopefully as time passes it will get less and less🤞Xx

Same it's so strange I agree there should be like set guidelines. The way the lady explained it to me was that they did some research by offering women who had no previous MC or bledding the progesterone and it had no affect and then gave women who had previous MC some but only at the point of bleeding and it was affective. But ultimately if you are going to have a MC taking it won't help prevent it but if your further along it can help substain it. I was scared to have loads of scans originally I declined because I felt ignorance is bliss to be honest. And the anxiety it causes me just isn't good for my MH but now I have seen a heart beat I am happy to. Although I do think it isn't goin to change any outcome unfortunately. I really hope this baby stays and your baby too!! That's amazing it's the same day. Make sure to update me and I will too. Wishing it all goes well for you x