I fell pregnant first cycle of trying last March then had a MMC, no bleeding or pain only found out at early scan (I can't remember but think it was about 5/6 weeks). I had very mild pregnancy symptoms which then stopped, at the first scan there was an embryo but they did bloods and HCG wasn't increasing as it should, went back a week later and embryo had been reabsorbed in to my body. Never got to the stage of a heartbeat.
We decided to wait until after our wedding to try again, fell pregnant in the first cycle of trying again but we were so anxious we booked for a 6 week scan and 8 week scan. 6 weeks saw a heartbeat and embryo measuring a few days behind but no real concerns. I had severe pregnancy symptoms from day 1, all the way up until the 8 week scan where the baby had only grown 1mm and the pregnancy was not developing. Another scan a few days later and embryo had started to shrink and heartbeat gone. Also with this MC I had no pain or bleeding.
I am 31, a healthy weight, healthy diet, have been taking pregnacare preconception then on to the normal prenatal vitamins, don't smoke, exercise etc. I don't know why this is happening to us! I know it's probably just a case of bad luck but I can't get out of my head that it's just never going to happen for us. Its scared me that with both MMC's they felt so different and I was so sure everything was fine the 2nd time.
I don't know if I did something wrong or if it could have been prevented. Luckily the law has just changed so the consultant at EPU referred to me recurrent miscarriage clinic in High Wycombe in 6-8 weeks.
I guess I'm just looking for some advice, positive stories, support, anything! Feeling so lost and sad and empty :(((((