Miscarriage Tw.photo

[LorriCola12]

Hi I'll jump right into this.. there is a graphic photo tw⚠️I feel like I've only just got back to normal but this bugs me
Me and my partner had been Trying for a baby and on Jan7th found out I was pregnant we were building the courage to tell our families I was still working at this point and wanted to earn as much as I could before going off, my job was easy and knew I could work right up till i wanted my job was very helpful and nice about maternity leave.
Everything was going fine until jan 29th or around then I started bleeding informed My gp asap and they had a doc call me who then sent me for a scan the next day early.before the scan I used the bathroom and felt something wasn't right like a clot bigger than I'd known as disgusting as it is I caught this clot and attached/buried was the below photo I managed to clear it up and get a photo, which when I showed the doctor she had no idea what this was and kept questioning me weather this came out of my hooharr, which I was a million percent off. I never got much answers nor did I get support I hid away for weeks and weeks and now the thought of "trying again" terrifies me. I'm sure I have a idea of what this is but the more I look at it the more my mind spins and I feel at a lost with answers.
Thank you

I’m so sorry for your loss, it’s a very clear picture and definitely can tell what is it, do you mind me asking how far along you were? I had a chemical pregnancy last month but never saw anything like this just had blood clots, I might sound a little twisted but I would have taken some comfort in seeing this after a miscarriage in a way like you got to hold your baby as heartbreaking that is, I took comfort in the fact that I got to walk around my favourite place when I was pregnancy and my baby was there although it was probably only a mass of cells, the hospital were terrible with me I had the miscarriage very stern and unsupportive I think that’s just the way the staff are towards it and it’s absolutely shocking.
I feel the same as you regarding trying again, as it really triggered my depression and I didn’t leave the house for weeks and cried the whole time, but I think I’m coming out of this side now, I’m worried like you are of if it happens again, but talking to people helps, I was really surprised just how many people around me actually had an early pregnancy loss people just don’t talk about it 💔
thinking of you as I know how hard it is but I know deep down that both of us will be mummy’s soon

I believe i was around 7 or 8 weeks, in the photo she looks really small but it was different in person.No not twisted at all that makes 100% sense and infact as bizarre as it , ive held back deleting these photos cause it reminds me i had that chance and did hold her (me and my partner just found comfort in talking about the you know as a her) i did not want to just flush what i presume to be my baby away,as strange it may be I wrapped her up and buried it in the same place as my childhood dog which I visit all the time💔
im sorry for your loss and your terrible experience in the hospital, its unthinkable the way these things are acted upon. after being told I had miscarried and there was no baby anymore she sent me away and I was asked to Clear the waiting area while waiting for the other half in the toilet, because they were busy,I was sobbing my heart out in a stairwell for what felt like forever, since then I won't lie My depression has got alot worse but I think I'm working on it getting there slowly, unfortunately it's another one of them things people know about but don't Know properly about.
Thank you for your kind words it really is nice knowing there are people in a similar boat as myself I wish you all the best now and for the future mumma ❤️🩵

Aww bless you, must have been so hard and horrible to be crying in the stairwell by yourself 😥
just remember to look after yourself too, do all the crying, shouting and talking you need to do, I think I got emotionally numb at one point I’m not sure if you feel the same/will feel the same at some point but if you do just remember it’s normal there is a few of us out there that totally understand and your not alone, however with time it does get easier.

you’ll always remember your little girl I’m sure she’s keeping my little one up in heaven company😇😇

we decided to name our little one poppy as they were the size of a poppyseed, me and my husband take comfort in that

But keep trying (when your ready of course) and stay hopeful as I know a few people who have gone on to have beautiful babies after a rainbow baby