Miscarrying and lost my job - feeling alone and frightened

[CrazyMILonthecase]

Hi ladies,

Sorry I posted this on chat when I should have posted here.

TBh, not sure why I’m posting on here as I know no one can help me but I guess I need to vent/ have a handhold. Today I started miscarrying, my 5th miscarriage. I’m 7.5 weeks. I had a bad feeling about this from the start, just a gut feeling it would all go wrong. To make matters worse I also found out this morning that I’m losing my job. I’m on a contract so there was always a chance this could happen but to happen at the same time just feels too much. I haven’t told anyone I’m pregnant, not even my husband, as he feels very stressed at the moment and isn’t good at handling a lot of different things at the same time. I thought I would tell him once I get to the 8.5 week when it starts to feel a bit safer for me. I just feel so so so alone. I’m meant to be taking my children out for the day and I can’t stop crying or find the strength to plaster on a smile and go out. I can’t believe I’m having another miscarriage, I feel sick with disbelief that it’s yet another baby I don’t get to keep x

Hi. I really feel for you, life can be so hard and cruel and very testing. Please tell your husband, you shouldn’t have to go through this alone. I’ve been through multiple miscarriages and never got my rainbow baby, I feel your pain. You need to rest and have time to gather your thoughts, you’ll feel stronger in time but for now be kind to yourself…put yourself first.

please do tell someone, you shouldn’t carry this weight silently. Sending you positive vibes x x Take care

So sorry you are going through this OP, I hope you are able to tell your husband or if a friend as it sounds like you could really do with someone to support you through this.

@Insideallday @shivermetimbers77 thank you so much for your replies. It just feels like a lot to deal with all at once right now but to be honest, the job feels trivial in comparison to losing yet another baby.
we weren’t actively trying for a baby and with my history and how long it had taken to previously fall pregnant I really didn’t think just “once” would do it. I felt elated when I found out but wasn’t sure how my husband would take it so thought I wouldn’t say anything until I felt it was more certain. Now look where I am! I feel like I’ve jinxed it, like it’s my fault for thinking if I could just get to a certain point I’d feel safer and able to tell him 💔 I’m scared he will feel relief, I know that’s an awful thing to say but that’s how I feel.