I’m miscarrying now - confused and alone

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Hi, I’m sorry to post again but I’m so confused and alone. I had a private scan last week on Tuesday at 9+5 that showed a sac at only 7/8 weeks and a yolk sack with fetal pole only 1.3mm. Then EPU scanned on Thursday (10 weeks) and saw an empty sac. They have arranged a rescan for next Monday.

I have been spotting for over a week now since last Monday. Yesterday I had some cramping and heavier bleeding but I don’t think it was heavy heavy (I filled two normal always pads over the afternoon/evening) I put an ultra night pad on when went to bed and didn’t fill it. This morning it’s stopped again with some mild spotting and no really pain. Is this it finished? There were some teeny tiny clots when I wiped. I feel so confused. Will it come on again? Is it over? Will it never happen? I don’t know how much longer I can bear sitting on the sofa waiting for it to happen but I know I can’t be at work (patient facing role with children). I feel like i’m failing my little boy. He knows something is wrong, of course he does, he’s 2. I think he wants to feed a lot because he knows it but the aversion in getting is terrible. Im eating way too much crap and really aware of this. Im so lost and alone. How long will this go on for?

I feel like I’m failing as a parent to my little boy, failing at having another baby and now im failing at even having a miscarriage.

@LilBlueberry hey, I’m sorry you’ve experienced this too. I can’t believe the amount of women who are all going through this at the same time is so sad. To be honest, I haven’t been off work sick in about 10 yrs so I was thinking of maybe having 6 weeks off, I travel for work and fly long haul, and the last thing i want is to be ill on an aircraft or when I’m away so I’m edging on the side of caution and going to get my doctor to hopefully help me stay off until October. I do love my job and I want to be back but just feel I need time to recover and be home without stressing about every time I feel ill, plus if we want to try again it has to be sooner than later. I’m lucky to have sick pay for the full time though I know others aren’t so fortunate. X

@Hollycharlie i like the idea that what’s meant for you won’t pass you by ❤️ I hope everything works out for you whatever you decide and your husband is supportive and understanding xx

@CrazyMILonthecase thank you so much you too ❤️❤️❤️xx

@Hollycharlie @CrazyMILonthecase thanks so much xx sending you both much love!