After a missed miscarriage this year and really difficult time with it physically and mentally I’m really struggling and feel so alone and I cry pretty much every day. Trying to put one foot in front of the other every day and show up for work I do it but I don’t know how. The only way I can describe it is standing behind a glass wall looking out at everyone enjoying their life and I don’t do anything bec I don’t feel like it. I don’t make plans or contact friends just now and again and I’ve lost interest in things. I’ve got 2 weeks off coming up in a
months time and I’ve nothing planned bec I don’t feel like it. Sometimes I was doing ok and then I feel I’ve gone 10 steps back. Perhaps things have come up from the surface that I pushed down. I don’t have any children or a partner (complicated story) I find social media hard with people and their pregnancies but let them enjoy their happiness is what I say to myself. I feel like the universe is shoving things in my face and I’ve noticed lately I get asked by strangers at work do I have kids. Some day I’m going to launch at someone if I get asked this question once more. The next time I will be firm. I know I sound quite down but I think it’s a work in progress and just got to learn to deal with it. I do journal and try to think of the reasons why this has happened to me I’m also 46 soon and age Dosent help I know that and I don’t need anyone to tell me that. Sorry for this rant but I’m just so confused