Struggling as due date gets closer

[Capricorn93]

I miscarried in September last year and would have been due at the end of this month. Now I am starting to really struggle emotionally as my due date gets closer.

All I want to do is just curl up and cry. All I see all over social media is pregnancy announcements and journeys.

My partner wants us to try again and I do too but I just don't feel that now is the right time. And intimacy is the furthest thing from my mind but it seems to be all that he can think about.

It seems to be causing a wedge between us but I don't know what to do.

@Capricorn93 I'm so sorry for your loss 💔
I lost my son in June 2021 and he was due August 2021 and I dreaded that due date coming.
Once it arrived, I realised the lead up to it was worse than the actual due date. Myself and my husband wanted to do something 'happy' to mark the day that should've been the happiest day of our lives, so as big rollercoaster fans, we went to Alton Towers! People probably thought we were crazy, but the alternative was sitting at home crying, and we'd done enough of that to last a lifetime. We talked about our son all day, and we did cry thinking of what should have been, but we forced ourselves to smile for him.
If you feel up to it, is there anything you can do to mark the due date? Even going for a walk and talking to your baby can be really therapeutic. They may even send you a sign to show they're around, I feel like my son does 💙
Sending love xxx

@Littlelighthouse Thank you for your reply. I really like that idea. I have spoken with my partner and we are planning on doing something nice on the day itself. But I think you are right about the run up to it being harder. I am also very sorry to hear of your loss.