Hi all,
im feeling totally broken.
I’m 42 and got married to my amazing hubby May 2022. We both have a child each from previous marriages and thought we were too old to have more, we’ve never tried to but also haven’t really monitored the last 3 years because I have PCOS, endermetriosis and tbh thought I was peri menopausal.
On the 28th of December when my period was 4 days late we were both shocked to discover I was pregnant.
Due to previous losses and major issues during pregnancy and birth with my son (now 7) we were booked in for an early scan.
I did tests daily which got progressively darker. Even yesterday the morning of the scan was darker, but, clear blue still only showed 2-3 weeks.
5 weeks 5 days and the scan showed nothing. Even the internal showed nothing only the ovary the egg had come from, the lining was 12.9mm they have put it down as a pregnancy of unknown location.
They took me for bloods which show 577 so to early to see anything on scan.
I‘’m due to go back tomorrow to check levels but I’m resigned to the fact they’ll likely be dropping. My boob soreness and heartburn literally turned off like a tap yesterday.
While 577 is not a bad HCG 8 days prior the clear blue showed as 2-3 weeks which is a hcg of 153 according to their website. Which would mean that my hcg has inly
risen 420 in 8 days not doubled every 48-72 hours as that should be over 1000.
I spent all of yesterday heartbroken in tears in bed. We thought it was so unlikely and unplanned it must have been meant to be. But now it looks like I’ll be losing another.
Life is so cruel. tomorrow will be the moment of truth but im sure they will have dropped given all my symptoms have gone. So I’ll guess I’ll just have to wait for the bleed to start.
im so hurt though this is so painful.