Ectopic, ivf, methotrexate

[Marple03]

After a 2nd round of IVF (first round resulted in no embryos), this round resulted in fresh transfer of one embryo and none to freeze. Basically ttc for almost 5 years, am 38. 2 early miscarriages, one in 2018 and 2019 from spontaneous conception. 2 lots of fibroid removal also.

So after this second round, low beta, thought i miscarried but betas going up solidly enough all last week. Scan on monday.... Nothing in uterus. Promptly brought into early pregnancy unit (thankfully) and resulted in getting methotrexate yday after another scan and 2 beta tests which showed hcg rising tho not as much. Last Hcg was 1500. Thought the levels were dropping but having to get the methotrexate just really put the tin hat on it.

Just utterly broken by all this. All the pain and disappointment of the years just feels like it's crashing down on me. DH also really down. Just feel so so fed up. Feel absolutely hopeless and that my chances are just slipping away. Now on top of it all, im paranoid that I'll need a second dose of the drug.

I know we will try IVF again but the crushing disappointment i appear to be setting myself up for just hangs there...

I realise that I'm lucky that methotrexate was an option and that it could have been worse. I just wanted to put this out there but also to ask re anyone's experience of methotrexate and hcg levels like mine...

I dont have any experience of methotrexate but just wanted to say hope you are ok. I had an ectopic 7 weeks ago. I was 9 weeks and unfortunately only found out once my tube had ruptured. I had to have keyhole and one of my tubes removed. Physically, i am fine. Mentally, i am destroyed. The day was so traumatic and just went i think im ok it all comes flooding back. I know how you feel - it completely consumes you. I hope things start to look up for you

Thank you so much for your kind wishes. I'm waiting on bloods tomorrow to see if it's coming down.

I'm so sorry about what you've gone through. It must have been terrifying. I think it is totally natural to be traumatised from that experience. You poor thing. I hope you can take some time for yourself to help yourself mentally. I hope too that you have someone to offload to. I find it helps to get it off my chest.

Take care of yourself.

Sorry that it's not worked out. (We've just done IVF round 5...and it's looking negative).
I've had 4 ectopic pregnancies so far. All results of natural pregnancies but my tubes are blocked. (One sorted itself out, two were removed via laparoscopy and one was resolved with methotrexate.) With the methotrexate, just make sure you get the chance to rest and let the stuff do it's job. My hcg level was similar but one dose worked fine. Bleeding started in the afternoon after I had the medication. It wasn't heavy...or at least a lot lighter than my usual periods. There was some cramping but no pain as such. I was feeling much better after 3 days or so...
Good luck and fingers crossed for next time.

I'm so sorry for all you've been through with ectopic pregnancies. Also, that your most recent round is negative. It's all so so disappointing. Hope you're feeling ok and getting thru this shit time.

Thanks for telling me about your experience. I'm still being monitored but they were happy the single dose is working. Absolutely no bleeding yet for me. It was deemed to be of unknown location so I was fortunate that I wasn't ever really ill or an emergency. Ive had a cold/flu thing since then and now sinusitis but ok otherwise ok physically.

Hope this new year brings positivity and good news to you all.