Will it ever get easier???

[Reesa2022]

A year ago today I was 9 weeks pregnant and started bleeding. This led to 2 scans at EPU and eventually told I'd miscarried...1st baby, 1st pregnancy...devestated 😞

I started my period today (really hoping I wouldn't! - we're TTC) and it has triggered me so much. I can barely get through an hour without breaking down and am snapping at everything/one. Does it ever get easier to handle?

I have endo and can barely walk for the pain right now. I feel like this is never gonna happen for me, its just not meant to be and I'll just have to live with a heavy heart and no little one in my arms.

Sorry, I dont really have a question or anything, just feeling really low right now. I'm sure no one will respond but hoping getting it out will help me feel a bit better

Oh OP, I feel you. I was just about to open my own thread but saw yours.

I had a MMC at 8 weeks a year ago and we've been TTC ever since. I just did a pregnancy test and of course it's negative.

I have endo too and my symptoms are so bad at the moment (sore breasts, pelvic cramps).

It's draining, depressing and a real emotional roller coaster. I just want to be pregnant and I hate not knowing when (or if) this will be.

It's at the point now where I know we need to start booking into the GP for investigation but I don't want to admit something is wrong! I just want to fall pregnant like so many others seem able to.

Just know you're not alone x

Im so sorry you're going through it too and sorry for your loss💐 its just absolutely rubbish isnt it? I try to keep hoping but like you said its draining and takes all my energy to stay positive about it all at the moment.

Have your endo symptoms changed since your MMC (sorry to ask, you dont have to answer)? My pain used to be really deep and achy womb and back pain but now its whole pelvis cramps/seizing and soreness plus sore boobs and the fatigue any time of the month

Do you think you'll go to your GP? I went in August to say endo is ramping up, TTC etc. They referred me to gynae who offered a telephone appointment in Feb🙄 which they have since cancelled and have now given me a May appointment 😡😭

It feels like we have to fight so hard for something others can blink and have, and it's heartbreaking.

Although its for a horrible situation, thank you for making me feel less alone. Its hard when it feels like everyone else has moved on but its still so real for me Xx

@Reesa2022 I don’t have any advice but I couldn’t just read and run. I’m really sorry for your loss. And the same to you @Got2besoon.

I really really hope that it happens for you both soon ❤️

Thank you @Justworkplease for your kind words. It can feel so lonely going through it sometimes. I really hope so too Xx

My symptoms are all over the place. On the whole, they've improved a lot since my teens but I still have some bad day.

My periods have gotten lighter this year but, while this makes my knife easier, this makes me worry it soon sort of sign of failing fertility!

I've decided to wait until the new year and see the GP then if still no success :(

I'm going to see if eliminating caffeine helps. Who knows!

*my life easier

Sorry, typing on the tube!

It's good that the pain isn't as bad as it used to be.

It's so hard that any change can make us worry. Dr Google doesn't help either! Mine have been lighter overall since my MMC, although still a few heavy days. I've been wondering about perimenopause and all sorts (in my early 30s)

I really really hope you don't have to go to the GP and it will happen for you before then ✨✨

It might sound crazy but I wish we could do a reset/reboot and see if that helps!

I hope the same for you.
Maybe we'll both be updating this thread next month with pictures of our BFPs. Stranger things have happened!

Do you do anything to help your endo? The only thing I haven't tried is to stop caffeine (I love a morning coffee) but I figure going decaff for a few months is worth a try.