I can’t believe I'm writing this and I thought this was the one this time. I went for what should have been my 12 week scan this morning only to receive the devastating news that there was no heartbeat and baby had died at 10 weeks. This is the third loss Ive had since December.
First of all how?! Why?! I just don’t understand. I decided to let baby naturally pass at home but now I’m not so sure I can wait how can I carry on normally knowing my poor baby is dead floating around inside me. Has anyone passed naturally at home this far along? Im terrified of the pain and blood loss and how long its going to take. I haven't bled or spotted yet but have been having lower back pain and mild cramps Im hoping this means its not going to be too far away.
I just keep getting flashbacks of my husbands bewildered face when they were scanning me, I knew by his face something was wrong. How do I move forward I feel so lost.
Thank you if you got this far x