I had my 12 week scan on Thursday, the sonographer was very vague but said there wasn't much development and we needed to go upstairs to the emergency gynaecology unit where they would talk to us some more
In the EGU they said they suspected a molar pregnancy and I needed a D and C (can't remember what they call them now) and they would do it the next day which I had done yesterday under a general anaesthetic and now I'm waiting for histology results.
But I just feel so lost, if it was a molar pregnancy then it wasn't even really a miscarriage but I still feel like I've lost a baby and that makes me feel insensitive to people who really have had miscarriages. I feel like a fraud, I feel like I have no right to be sad and that makes me feel worse for feeling sad I can't explain very well. I just feel trapped in a vicious circle of sadness and guilt.
I don't really know what I want from this, I don't feel like I have anyone I can talk to in real life and was hoping writing it down might help it make sense in my head.