Back in October I had a miscarriage (baby wasn’t forming properly). I had to have a few surgeries and some very invasive treatments to remove the pregnancy. At the time I felt ok with it, baby wasn’t planned and I had a very challenging 2 year old on my hands while studying full time. Now all my friends (who had their firsts at the same time as me) are expecting their seconds and each time somebody announces it I just break down in tears. My husband has admitted me doesn’t even think about the miscarriage anymore and he forgets it even happened so he doesn’t understand. My friends (who aren’t parents) have said ‘You need to stop thinking this way about baby that was not a baby because it didn’t form right so would not have had it anyway’ when I explained the due date was tomorrow and my I was feeling quite upset at others announcing their second pregnancies.
not sure what I’m trying to say here to be honest! I’m just feeling very confused as it wasn’t even 100% I wanted the pregnancy in the first place so why do I feel SO very broken about it now, 9 months later! I just feel very alone, isolated and truly like nobody understands what is going through my head