I very recently lost my baby at 17 weeks 
I'm aware it's not been a week yet and my emotions and hormones are through the roof I'm not sleeping or eating well, my milk came in and I'm in lots of pain with that, I'm bleeding heavily still. There is a lot going on. I read online about how fertile you are in the three months following a miscarriage and it's just made me feel desperate to try and get pregnant again in that time. I so badly just want my baby back. Which is impossible. But I want to be pregnant still, I don't want to not be. Every part of my logical brain is saying wait 3 months atleast, get the post mortem results, go for a smear as my one last year had issues and I had to miss my yearly call back due to being pregnant and I can now have one in 3 months. I was also going to arrange a private scan in a fertility clinic to look at my PCOS and see whether this could of caused what happened. I just get so panicky when I think of waiting as then I've missed this fertile 3 months. What if it takes years. I want my kids close in age. I was so happy about the 3 year gap. It was bigger then we planned but over time I thought it would be perfect. Now it's all gone