I just have to speak about it.
I was using condoms but somehow got pregnant. My husband had a vasectomy which we were waiting for for 2 years when I was unknowingly pregnant.
I was devastated to be pregnant as we can't afford to be on maternity leave and for me to not work full time until school age. Then I miscarried at 17 weeks.
Now I'm devastated that I'm not and all geared up for a baby that I can never have. Truth is I want her, her name was Hope, but from experiencing 2 miscarriages before, I know how healing giving birth is after miscarriage and all I want is a baby.