Hey, not sure where to start nor what to say.
On Monday at my 12 week scan we were told our baby didn't have a heartbeat and had stopped growing at 11 weeks, in the matter of minutes, my happiness fell to heartbreak, I was sent to anither department where we under went medical management to help pass baby, I say baby as to me that's excatly what it was my baby. On Wednesday morning I passed baby and seeing it broke my heart that bit more, I was distraught I sat on the toilet with my head spinning with questions, what did I do? It's my fault? Why did my baby not want to live? Why was this happening?
The questions where never ending, I'm now 3 days post missacriage and my heart is aching, I feel empty, lost, guilty, confused and a whole lot of sadness.
How do I deal with what I'm feeling, I've carried 4 babies and this baby just wasn't ment to join our family, I'm greatful for all I have but to lose a child is the qorst pain,
I've sat their and seen people say they've misscarried and I never fm thought it would be me feeling like that.
How do I move forward? How do I try to be happy?